Have you ever felt like giving up on life because your prayers were hitting the ceiling (or so it appears to be?)
I was at a very low point in life some weeks ago. It was like I no longer knew what to believe in. It was tough to see others succeed in areas I wanted to badly to succeed in. I couldn’t understand why I was still stuck in what I refer to as the pit. I know that I should’ve spent more time in prayer, worship and just communing with the Lord but I didn’t know how to. Because of the situation I was in, I was convinced that there’s no open door nor window. I could only see people getting to do what I wanted to do. It was so difficult to praise God. Before long I felt myself slipping away. Not slipping away from faith in God but just slipping away. My prayers to God became shorter and shorter because I didn’t know what to say. After all, He is God and I’m not. I didn’t know how to make sense of it so I told myself that it’s the cross I have to carry. Every day became a drudgery. I lost my joy. While I was still listening to worship music, it was very difficult to put my feelings aside. I stopped praying after a while, as I asked myself what was I expecting? If it’s something not meant for me, I can beg and plead and nothing would change.
Suddenly, the window of opportunity came. It was still difficult to say yes to that offer because I wasn’t sure if I would be going from frying pan into the fire. But at that juncture, I just finalized on the decision.
I rocked the boat. So now it’s another adventure with the Lord when I see the ripples next week.
However, God is good. I can’t understand why I needed to go through the pit situation for so many years. But now that I’ve been given an opportunity, I can only trust in the Lord.
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
6 Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)